Getting tougher to follow through

Last couple of days have been difficult for many reasons. It's been especially difficult to maintain this practice because of it. Every day for the past few it would have been very easy to say fuck it, i don't feel like this. What's the point anyway. Everything is so messed up. But I'm trying to keep a promise to myself, trying to at least have one thing that I can count on in my life right now. They may not be great, but at least I am following through on my word so something can have meaning..